i really miss u baby...

Looking back on everything,
I still remember his smile.
I wish things didn't end so soon,
And turn back time for awhile.

No matter how much it hurts,
I still love him so.
A part of me needs him so much,
Can't seem to let him go.

Knowing I won't be able to see him,
Makes my heart cry out in pain.
I can't believe we won't talk anymore,
The thought makes me wanna go insane.

He was my reason for waking up,
For the smile you see on my face.
Going a single day without him,
Makes me feel so out of place.

I was afraid of opening up,
Now I'm afraid of the next day.
Whenever I see him one last time,
I'm terrified of what he may say.

I know tomorrow will hurt,
But the tears will fade away.
Life is too short for regrets,
There will be a brighter day.

But when I see him one last time,
I won't know what to do...
When he tells me that last goodbye,
I'll whisper,"I already miss you.."

why does tis hav to happen to me...i hate LIFE!!!

i jz feel lyk getting out of town for a while...seriously...jz so tensed and stressed up....fastrated...why does every1 ignore me??? wat did i do?? i feel lyk dying rite NOW!!!!! i noe am not surpost to be angry or sad a day before major's b'day bt haiz nth to say la....

i jz duno hw to express my feeling la... its lyk i dun exsist anymore....it reli hurts wen u do tat....yes i noe u r bz and all....bt why cnt u lyk spend jz a minute telling me how u r...i care for u soooo much n tis is wat i get..... even wen u n him fought i was the one helping u guess n is tis how u thank me?????

am truly sorry

babe....i am extreamly sorry for hurting u tat day on the fon....i was sooo tensed up n my mind was seriously not wit me at tat point of time...gosh i feel sooooooo soooooo sooooo bad for hurting u...

i knw u were extreamly hurt n u were cryin bt u didnt show it...am i rite? i jz duno watz wrong wit me.... if u read tis baby...i jz wan u to knw tat i didnt mean all those thns i said at all...i jz didnt knw wat i was sayin....i jz cant sleep nowadayz cuz i miss u a lot.....i soooooo wish u were here with me...huggin me and cheerin me up...

You're simply the best dam thn any1 would wish to hav do u knw tat?? sweet& loving, caring & sharing, cute& Notty...u r jz not lyk other guys...u r diffrent in ur own wat....diffrent from all the other guys i knw.....will nvr stop loving u even til da end of my life.... u r seriously the BEST!!! jz wan u to noe tat...i love my lil notty2 boy....hehe....

depressed

am feeling sooooooo depressed and bad... i reli didnt mean to hurt u babe...its jz tat i was nt in the rite state of mind....i am sorry ok.....i reli reli miss u.... u Ady noe my ans to ur ques iz a YES!! i reli wan u bck...i feel d same way as u.... i was jz tensed cuz of my results....i didnt mean to throw tat anger at u....am sorry

i miss u baby

well...sch was ok today...exams were quiet easy...lalala...well nw mz prepare for pertengahan tahun.....haiz....well i hugged my baby for the second time today....loving her sooooooooooooooo muchy....

missing her lotz....lala.... missing my bf too....i mean my ex....he is stll mine ok....well... nth much i cn say.....till nx i blog...ciao..

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life sucks

welll here i am blogging afta i duno how long....welll my life reli sucks nwdays....well basicali cuz i miss sum1 sooooooooooooooo badly...haiz......i jz duno la i jz feel sooooo stucked up....

well my b'day on the other hand was ok...i was quiet shocked wen sonia wished me....basicali is shanae told sonia... well during meeting today she ask the whole prefect board to sing b'day song 4 da April babies....

haiz haiz haiz....i miss spending time with ma baby gaL...cnt wait afta pmr to spend time with her....haiz haiz.....missing u baby....always am acc...

and yar i oso wen for counceling abt sum stuff.....haiz nx week got date with pn.sonthary ...

till nx time i blog...ciao...