haiz life jz sucks...

haiz i reli duno why am blogging nw bt i guess i jz felt lyk realesing my problems o sth...i duno....haiz my exam results reli suck and i duno hw am i gonna get through PMR...i hope god will help me... haiz...why does tis owez happen to me...becoming blank during examz....i hate it...

haiz....problems afta problems come...haiz...i reli reli thought i could do well in maths tis time bt i proved myself WRONG!!!!!!!!!! am trying my level best to study if oni god doesnt make me go BLANK during exam i cn do it...i knw i cn....

well my fav song n i love dafi

well my fav song n i love dafi

PROJEK SEJARaH bangunan bersejarah

why did u hav to leave....

The wind was blowing from somewhere in the distance...
It carried with it a faint fragrant smell of a wonderful memory...
The smell wafted in the air, as if trying to beckon me towards it...
Him... Yes, him... an image flashed in my mind repeatedly over this memory... or is it actually an illusion?
His every word, movement, the way she gazed at me... All seemed to be real once again...
The sly look he always had in his eyes, The shine The late night chats, falling asleep with each other... opening up to him and only him...
Only he could know me more than anyone else ever could... The only one I was fully at ease and comfortable with to let in completely...
When these things enter my mind now I can't sleep... not a wink...
In time, morning comes... this feeling lingering even long after the sun sets, the night passes, and the sun rises again...
Now it seems I don't have anyway of seeing or being with him ever again...
Yes, I love him... Even if my family, friends, the society, the world... and he as well, won't try to accept me...
That's not the most worriesome thing to me... What is? It feels like she is going to be reduced to just a mere memory soon, and I can't stand it... I'm scared...
he might be already thinking of me as just someone he used to know... Just a fleeting memory of no importance or impact...
The way things are going, I'm afraid my memory of him is going to be gone before I know it...
"Please don't forget me..." I want to say to him... I wonder really... has he been thinking about me?
Why? Why I ask and let out into the air softly... I wonder if I am being tested?
I remember back then... he would just say "See you later...love u" Hmmmm "See you later...love u"
With no other choice I echo his goodbye back... trying to leave all questions behind with the darkness of the night...
I think back to these thoughts, with each whiff of this fragrance in the air...
I stop myself from being taken in too deep... snapping back to reality... he isn't coming for me the tears say as they well up in my eyes...
My vision blurs just like the fading memories I don't want to loose...
Does he think that things are better this way? Being apart... I wonder... yet like the night, they both stay silent...
"Bye... Goodbye and farewell to this one-sided love..." at least that is what everyone tells me I should say and do...
His image lingers still in my head... "Thank you for loving me... It made me very happy..."
I wish I knew if I meant anything to him... Was all my love and care... how I tried my best and hardest... everything... anything...were they just all in vain?
What was that time we spent together really? There were so many things in our relationship that were so important... at least to me it seemed...
"Aren't you lonely?" I hear a voice say... Even if I am lonely, it doesn't matter... the one I want and need isn't here...
I don't care if there are hundreds or even thousands of guys that come after me... if the one I loved wasn't one of them, it wouldn't make me happy...
Trying to forget him? It won't be an easy thing... But even if there are times when I am longing to see him... like now even... when I feel so lonely that I can't stand it...
I refuse... I won't look for a substitute, for someone who reminds me of him, who resembles him in someway... because it wouldn't be him... not in the least bit...
I wonder now... if that girl I am searching for... her... only exists in my glorified memories... maybe it will be clear again if I have the chance to see him again?
I imagine scenes in my head... does he ever talk about me and think about me with others? What does he say? His conversation runs through my mind:

"There is this guy... he seems so cute... I kind of just got with him
But it turns out he was serious about me... I turn him down by saying i'll think abt it
But he said he didn't mind in a way... that he would wait... he would be my friend if that is what I need and wanted...
"Better being something and hurting somewhat, then being nothing at all and hurting completely...", he said..."
"Is that so...?"
"It's tough really for some reason... I usually am not one to care this much... he really is cute...
he's a very good person... he's a really good boy... he hasn't done anything wrong... not at all...
I really shouldn't be doing this to him... I'm doing something horrible and terrible it feels like... Like I feel guilty or something...
I wonder why...? It wasn't a serious thing for me to begin with..."
"How strange..."
"What do you mean?"
"Have you ever thought that the reason you are feeling so conflicted is because you WANT to see him? Because you have feelings for him..."
"No way! You're wrong about that... I'm not going to fall for anyone like that... I'm not usually like that ever..."
"Hmmm... is that so? You may not realize it but you have it really bad... for that guy..."
"For THAT guy..." ...for ME... the last few words echo off into the dark recesses of my mind... is she hearing them too?
Did he really love me? If he really said that as in my thoughts... if he didn't love me then he wouldn't say that it was tough for him... right?
Are these thoughts really just my thoughts? This lonely feeling just me as well? I can't tell anymore...
Ideals and fantasies versus reality hit incessantly, blending together like paint mixed onto a canvas... creating a new world...
Which is the real one now and which is the fake? Hard to really tell anymore when the lies become reality and the reality becomes a lie...
We should've spent more time together as much as possible... We should've talked about anything and everything...
Our lives, our friends, our families, our dreams for the future, our likes and dislikes... Like close best friends do...
Wish we could... is it still possible? I wonder...
I wonder so much, the thoughts swirling in my head like the faint familiar scent swirling and mixing with the beckoning breeze...
I close my eyes once more, trying maybe for a final time... my thoughts are drifting..
It may not be real but I can almost hear it in the air...

i cnt believe u hurt me sooooo badly....

i am totallly speackless..he is dam gud

god he is sooooo gud.....i love tis song

my favourite song...he sings it soooo well

goshhhh he is soooo blady good man

omggggggggggggg he is oni 12 bt he sing dam gooooooooooddddddddddddddd

goshhhhh he is soooooo GUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he sing soooooo CUTEEEE

redang story

here I am.. back from Pulau Redang.. Its 1am.. and i cant sleep yet.. cause i'm already slept almost the whole way back to school in the bus..so boleh lah tahan



gee, i dont know how to start this post.. cause im too excited to tell you guys about my trip! other than getting really dark, it was awesome! fantastic! super! grreat! i must say that it was such a loss for not joining the camp.. i've experienced so many wonderful and unsual things.. i did things that I never imagine i would do.. and i've made friends with people I never thought would be so nice to me..


Friday Night, 29th May 09


We gathered at the school canteen at 10pm.. everyone was lining up according to their group.. ; Earth, Ice, Wind, Fire and Lightning.. While waiting for our bus, all the groups were having a discussion about group motto, slogan and the sketch that we have to do on the last night, night of culture.. my group was useless.. eheh.. cause none of us came up with anything.. instead we were talking about how excited and inpatience we are.. haha


The bus arrived at midnight.. At first, theres not enough place for some of the campers.. including me.. thank god, our camp leader, Sam.. was being nice by finding me a seat.. and that is next to Vicky.. Vicky thought i was being all weird and crappy.. i brought a small teddy with me.. and i love the down part of the teddy.. the small and cute butt.. i keep playing with it and making weird sounds.. Vicky thought i was weird.. ha-ha.. we didnt talk much in the bus.. cause vicky and i were too busy sleeping.. what do you expect.. it was 1 in the morning.. i was so sleepy and cold.. most of the seniors were awake and making noises.. the bus was making stops for 4 times.. and everytime the bus stops, i would go to the toilet.. :P


Saturday, 30th May 09




When I woke, the sun was rising.. Good Morning everybody! I looked out the window, and we were already in Hulu Terengganu.. it was 8.30 am in the morning.. the bus driver played a movie entitled Anaconda.. at least theres a movie to watch.. other than just sleeps and snores..haha.. ohhhh, I saw a a place called Bukit Besi! and I remembered.. thats the place where all the iron ore can be found.. right teacher? *eyebrow* other than that, I only saw oil palm.. the soil is red in colour.. the bus was driving through FELDA.. so thats why..


we've reached the Terengganu jetty around 9.50.. i guess.. thats what Raja told me.. suddenly it rained.. so we have to wait there until 10.30.. then only we can start walking to the jetty.. while Sam was buying the ferry ticket.. we have to wait under the hot sun.. this is when I called my mom.. when I told my mom that we just reached the jetty.. she was shocked O_O haha.. well, Mr Kumar himself asked the bus driver to drive Extra Slow so that we can sleep and regain our energy for the next day.. after blablablaaaaaaa, Sam gave each of us a ticket.. Then i dragged my bag to the waiting room.. finally i got to sit down and rest my butt off! ohhhh Iqin sat beside me.. and we've told each other story about what happened in our bus.. Iqin said her bus is noisy because of Sonia, Shash, Shanae and Pauline..haha no doubt..


After 15 minutes, I have to continue dragging my bag.. this time..to the ferry! yeayy! I sat beside Iqin.. we were trying to memorise our group's name.. ohh yea, I am in the Earth group.. whereas Iqin, the Wind group.. my group's name is easy to memorise cause theres only 13 of them including me.. ; Jega the leader, Kishen, Kok Kuan, How Ee, Chris, Vicky, Huei Shen, Ismah, Raja, Kah Yee, Jing Ming, Lok Yeow and Wing Hong.. see? easy right? :) continue with my story, when the ferry started to move.. me and Iqin went out of the ferry.. to the vip section.. ha-ha.. actually not only both of us.. but most of the malurians were there.. we were camwhoring together.. the wind blew boisterous.. my tudung keep flying here and there.. you can see it in the pictures that were taken.. suddenly, there were a lot of people there.. so the guy that worked in the ferry asked all the malurians to go down.. as soon as I sat at my place.. I fell asleep.. until we reached Pulau Redang which is 1 hour and 40 minutes away from the jetty.. see? I do sleep a lot :">


When I got out of the ferry, I saw a beautiful, clear, blue sea.. It was windy.. and just nice.. After that, we walked on foot to Redang Koko centre (Pusat Kokurikulum Pulau Redang) it was an old primary school.. they turned it into a Koko Centre for students from all over the place.. we're sleeping in a dorm.. each dorm have a lot of bed.. they even supplied us with bedsheets and pillow cases.. the place where we sleeps really not that bad.. its comfortable.. i felt like im in a boarding school or something.. (oh how I wish i would get into a boarding school :D) after I finished unpack all my things, I took my lunch.. suprisingly, the food also okay.. i can say that they were yummy :) around 3.30.. after we listen to a speech about safety,.. we went out for snorkeling! yeeeehaaaaaaaaaa ! to be more clear, it was water confident activity.. we rode on the back of a lorry.. standing.. cool :P haha.. they took us to a beach called Pantai Dalam.. the scenery was awesome! just like the one I saw in the internet.. the sea water so pure and blue... the sands are white and soft..


After we did some warm up, the trainers lead us to the sea.. then we started to snorkel.. there was nothing in the sea near that beach.. like i said.. we went there for practice.. to make sure that we are confident in the water.. then only they'll bring us to the real place where you can see all the corals and fishes.. first time, i was struggling in the water.. after for sometimes struggling, Im getting better and better B-) I've swallowed the sea waters many times.. *bluakhh* and my throat really hurts.. ohhhhh! i took pictures in the water! at fist,i dont know why.. suddenly a trainer pushed Iqin into the water.. i thought he was testing Iqin.. then Encik Mustapha said, "kamu tak nak tangkap gambar dalam air ke? masuk lah dalam air!".. i was like, "NAAAAAAAAKK!".. then the guy straightaway pushed me into the water..still, i managed to pose :P when I went up to the surface, woh! my eyes, my nose, my throat.. everything lahh.. really hurt okay.. :'/ (first timer mahh) but it was FUN! i never had my picture taken in the water.. i should have asked my dad to buy a waterproof camera.. haha


Sunday, 31th May 09


Firstly, morning exercise was FUN ! :D


Morning ;


Secondly, we went to Pulau Redang Marine Park.. we were the first one to be there.. the beach was nicer than the last beach.. but the sand not that soft lahh.. but who cares? we went there for snorkeling! :D the place was really nice.. haha.. i know.. i've been praising Pulau Redang's view so many time until you guys got tired of it.. but I cant deny it.. seriously, lawaaaa.. we snorkel from morning until afternoon.. most of us got sunburnt.. except for me.. *muahaha* but still, my skin look really dark right now.. *sad sighhhhh* okay whatever.. I still have one more week maxx to recover from this darkness.. :P so, what else should I say.. should I tell you guys what I saw under the sea? of course corals and fishes lahhh.. but before all the tourists came, me,iqin, raja and this chinese guy, swam far away from the shore.. from everyone.. theres a trainer swam with us.. we saw a really big, gray-blackish fish... it looked scary.. seriously.. the trainer said that the fish could bite us.. and demm i was scared! theres time suddenly the fish look up to us.. i was like, "why is the fish looking at us?" then i straightaway swam near Raja :X ohhhh for the first time, I saw Gamat.. wohhhh... coool :D haha then, the the trainer also took us to a sink ship.. which was so cool if you see it with your own eyes! its so big but if you look from the above, it looks like a small metal floating..


Afternoon ;


We distributed ourselves into two.. 40 of us went to Island Hopping.. and the rest went to the marine park.. again.. i still dont know why they distributed us.. okay.. so my group went to Island Hopping.. the island was beautiful.. but the corals not that interesting compare to the Marine Park..




Night ;


when I was about to take bath, I saw that theres no water in the tank! "ohmygod! they used up all the waters and never refill the tank!" suddenly, Iqin and Chin came.. I told them about the water.. and they were like, "whaaaat? then how to take bath?" theres two chinese girls who were still using the water.. since the tank is empty.. they took the pipe and use the water straight from there.. i was like, "stop using the water lahhh! put the pipe back into the tank to fill it..haiyaaaa" they just ignore and keep doing whatever they are doing.. =.= Chin told me to stay calm.. haha after the chinese girls finished bathing, the three of us stand around the tank while watching the water to fill up the tank.. it took us almost 1 hour to wait.. then Yvonne, Ying Ling, and Sam came.. we told them about the water.. and they think we looked so sad.. du-uh.. it was worth waiting though.. we got to use all the water just for ourselves (^^)


Monday, 1th June 09


Firstly, Morning exercise was fun! again :D


Secondly, today, its my group's turn to go to the Marine Park.. for bubble making! finally i got to dive! I was so excited to know how heavy is the gas tank bofore this.. and now i know.. it was really heavy! even the guys said so.. lucky me, I got to wear it in the water.. so the tank is not that heavy anymore.. if you wear it on the land, it'll be heavier.. science mahhh B-) I got to dive longer than anyone else.. after everyone finished doing it, i was like, "cikgu, nak buat lagi :D" then the teacher gave me the equipment.. i looked at the gas pressure.. and the teacher said theres still a lot of oxygen in the tank.. apa lagi.. I dived and used up all the oxygen in the tank.. for the first time, its really hard to breath through the mouth.. trust me.. i went panicked! after sometimes, it went well.. im starting to breath smoothly... then the teacher took me deep into the sea.. and I was a stone away from the corals! theres time im staring to panic cause my feet almost touch the corals.. the teacher keep pulling my kegs upwards so that i wont break the corals..haha pity him.. suddenly, theres another teacher came to me with a camera.. he gave me sign to pose.. so i straightaway pose like a superman..haha i want to show you guys the pictures.. but I havent get the cd yet.. the cd contain pictures underwater of all of us.. wait ehh.. when i got the cd, i'll upload the pictures :)


After that we snorkel again.. this time.. I didnt wear life jacket.. *eyebrow* i only wear the mask and the J-tube/snorkel.. we swam across the deeper sea.. and i even took pictures under the sea without wearing any equipment.. *prouddd* i've been dying to do that my whole life! :DD god, how brave i was.. :P *perasan* I saw a christmas tree.. sea-type.. haha it was round in shape.. and has some colourful dots all over it.. cute :)


Night ;


We were having a night of culture.. Everyone has to wear a formal dress.. so i wore a pink long skirt, with a pink top.. Kishen was like, "wohhhhh" when he saw me.. i was like, "whaat?" then he said, "you surpised me" =.= he and his weirdness.. ohh, Chris looked cute.. haha especially when he wear the grey shades.. and he keep on saying, CAPPATTI! now, he is well-known as Chris the cappatti guy! haha


so, as you know, each group have to perform a sketch.. well, in my group.. we're doing a story about snow white.. in our way.. the snow white name, we've changed it to Pak Cam..i play the roll as a guy who is so crazy about Pak Cam.. it was embarrasing!i cant believe i dare to act infront of those people :X but what can i do.. Jega wanted me to play the role.. cause he thinks i can act..bullshark =.= i will upload the sketch later.. oevrall, i think Ice group's sketch is funnier..yep.. Joel was acting as a wife to Shaun! wore a girl's black top that looks sexy... i should have taken a picture of him.. sadly, my battery camera was feeble..



Tuesday, 2nd June 09



It is Chris's 16th Birthday! Happy Birthday Christopher the Cappatti! :D



On the way back to school, in the middle of highway.. suddenly there a guy shouted, "i need to ***!" then the bus driver stopped the bus at the road shoulder.. the guy ran to the grass and ***.. everyone in the bus looked at him through the window.. and laughed like hell.. haha.. i didnt watch the guy ***.. i was sitting at my place and I saw everyone standing by the window and laughed.. (actually i was super sleepy that time..)


Reached school at 9.25 pm.. camwhoring for the very last time with friends and seniors.. ohhhhh im so going to miss my group members! ♥


they totally rock my socks !



-the end-

missing u

sayang i mis u sooooooooooooooooooo bladyyyyyyyyyy muchhhhh

tis is the wan

hari guru 2009

examzzzzzz OVER PPL OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yay weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..yahooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking examz finally OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! well time to start packing for camp... i cnt wait gosh gosh goshhhhhhhh......... got my prefect camp shirt 2day....and guess wat?? its too BIG!!!!!!!! my fault taking sucha BIG SIZEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz holidayz around da corner...duno wat to do...guess its jz study study and STUDY!!!!!!!!! lalalalalalala...hari guru oso cuming tis friday....weeeeeeeeee cnt wait to spend time with my boo boo...muahahahahaha...eventhough tat nite got camp...lalalala...

hope thr is nth disgusting at camp... cnt wait cnt wait CNT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!! haiz handphones not allowed...haiz haiz.....

well i'll post again we i get sum idea of wat to type...out of idea...hehe. sry ppl....

am i still ur daughter??

haiz....


this is how i feel..









sumtimes relationships dun reli last, do they.....haiz.... u hav changed a lot...n i mean A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!! wat happen to the old mummy i knew last yr huh?? i reli reli reli duno hw to express my feelings rite now... u are soooo diffrent now...

did i do anythn wrong?? even brian himself said to me tat u hav changed....do u hav an explaination?? wat did we do wrong?? u dun even giv a DAMN abt us...u dun giv SHIT to what happens to us do u????

i thought we all were gonna last forever...but with hw u hav been acting nwadayz i relly hav no words to express watz gonna happen!!!!!!!!

sad stressed emo everthn

why did u hav too make me feel left out 2day????...u knw i stayed bck in sch til 2pm for YOU and u were jz too bz talkin to sharon n treatin me as though am nt present thr... wat r u trying to do to me?????? i dun even think i exsist with u anymore....it reli hurts u knw..... haiz i reli duno wat to say... u hav changed a lot...
well examz really sucks la...i screwed bm sejarah mmoral papers...fark the examz la... sucks...

i wish u were here with me babe.....am reli reli down now..... haiz..... aam so sick...i feel lyk DYIN NOWWWW.....

i love ma baby boy....

welll...the reason i say i LOVE ma baby boy is cuz y'day nite (17/5/09)he stayed up with me and made sure i studied....he is jz sooooooooooooooooooooooooo sweet....his bro oso same...dam dam dam dam dam dam SWEET n LOVING....haiz school was BORING and TIRING...all the BORING subjeks today...haiz haiz...

well moral time was fun la....cuz my gang was as usual cracking jokes and talking nonsense...we laugh n laugh till navjit and kavi cried...HAHAHAHA....
not forgeting navjit's 'your father pragent'......hhehehehehehe.....

not forgeting aso my horny partner sitting beside me...keep singin n entertaining me.....hehe.....and oso talkin abt s*x....lalalala... wat else to write i oso duno so i stop 1st...wen i think of sth to write den i continue la...

always in ma mind

My head lays on my pillow;
the room is dark and damp.
(-- if I could only see your face,
though I know that I can't)

I try to close my eyes and sleep,
but your face haunts my dreams.
(I feel like I've been torn apart...
I'm broken at the seams.)

I toss and turn; I'm restless.
I know I will not sleep;
(I know that I still think of you.
Do you still think of me?)

My eyes now face the darkness;
the demon's haunting our lives.
(It seems we had it all and more;
Why did you leave me? Why?)

It seems the clock ticks slowly,
and yet our love went by so fast.
(Just where did I go wrong in this,
to make this love not last?)

I sit up smooth, but slowly;
I grip my sheets in my bare hands.
(Why did you have to leave me here?
I just don't understand...)

It seems the night is quiet
as I stand by my dark window.
(You left with not a word to say;
why did you have to go?)

The crickets dance like autumn.
The night is lit like June.
(I'm waiting for you to return;
are you returning soon?)

Laying on my bed once more,
I stare blankly ahead.
(Was this all you or was it me?
Is our love truly dead?)

I feel like such an empty pleasure,
like I could scream aloud this night.
(Was I just living in a dream?
Was nothing really right?)

I watch the seconds pass me by;
The silence fills my heart.
(You know that I am fragile;
do you know I'm torn apart?)

A tear slides down my ghostly face
and falls onto my sheets.
(Were you just playing with my head?
Did you truly love me?)

I close my eyes so gently
as if I am afraid I'll break.
(How did we lose the love we had?
Was all the love a fake?)

The questions lull me into sleep,
a sleep filled with your face.
(I thought that I had melt your heart
which no one could replace?)

wanna see u badly

A thousand kisses will never be,
Enough to satisfy my craving heart's plea,
Tommorrow will be the day I love you more,
Than today or yesterday or ever before,
Words and phrases will never do,
What my heart feels so deeply for you,
Deeper and deeper my feelings go,
My head is spinning too and fro,
I want you here, forever and more,
For our hearts to join and together explore,
Our hearts beat and beat as one,
Feel what I'm feeling, it's only begun,
Yet, slowly my desire turns to rage,
My heart feels as though it's within a cage,
You are so close yet so far,
At times like this I wish upon a star,
I wish you were here and not over there,
Yet life is hard as well as unfair,
All I can do is wish and wait,
Until we meet again as that is our fate,
I love you more than my words can say,
And forever my love will grow each passing day,
Until the day I gently hold your face,
Kiss your lips within a candle lit place,
Hold you close and feel you near,
Kiss your cheek, whisper to your ear,
Feel your soft skin beneath my hand,
Feel your energy inside expand,
I'll wish for that moment as I always do,
And I've wished upon a star, so my wish will come true.

i really miss u baby...

Looking back on everything,
I still remember his smile.
I wish things didn't end so soon,
And turn back time for awhile.

No matter how much it hurts,
I still love him so.
A part of me needs him so much,
Can't seem to let him go.

Knowing I won't be able to see him,
Makes my heart cry out in pain.
I can't believe we won't talk anymore,
The thought makes me wanna go insane.

He was my reason for waking up,
For the smile you see on my face.
Going a single day without him,
Makes me feel so out of place.

I was afraid of opening up,
Now I'm afraid of the next day.
Whenever I see him one last time,
I'm terrified of what he may say.

I know tomorrow will hurt,
But the tears will fade away.
Life is too short for regrets,
There will be a brighter day.

But when I see him one last time,
I won't know what to do...
When he tells me that last goodbye,
I'll whisper,"I already miss you.."

why does tis hav to happen to me...i hate LIFE!!!

i jz feel lyk getting out of town for a while...seriously...jz so tensed and stressed up....fastrated...why does every1 ignore me??? wat did i do?? i feel lyk dying rite NOW!!!!! i noe am not surpost to be angry or sad a day before major's b'day bt haiz nth to say la....

i jz duno hw to express my feeling la... its lyk i dun exsist anymore....it reli hurts wen u do tat....yes i noe u r bz and all....bt why cnt u lyk spend jz a minute telling me how u r...i care for u soooo much n tis is wat i get..... even wen u n him fought i was the one helping u guess n is tis how u thank me?????

am truly sorry

babe....i am extreamly sorry for hurting u tat day on the fon....i was sooo tensed up n my mind was seriously not wit me at tat point of time...gosh i feel sooooooo soooooo sooooo bad for hurting u...

i knw u were extreamly hurt n u were cryin bt u didnt show it...am i rite? i jz duno watz wrong wit me.... if u read tis baby...i jz wan u to knw tat i didnt mean all those thns i said at all...i jz didnt knw wat i was sayin....i jz cant sleep nowadayz cuz i miss u a lot.....i soooooo wish u were here with me...huggin me and cheerin me up...

You're simply the best dam thn any1 would wish to hav do u knw tat?? sweet& loving, caring & sharing, cute& Notty...u r jz not lyk other guys...u r diffrent in ur own wat....diffrent from all the other guys i knw.....will nvr stop loving u even til da end of my life.... u r seriously the BEST!!! jz wan u to noe tat...i love my lil notty2 boy....hehe....

depressed

am feeling sooooooo depressed and bad... i reli didnt mean to hurt u babe...its jz tat i was nt in the rite state of mind....i am sorry ok.....i reli reli miss u.... u Ady noe my ans to ur ques iz a YES!! i reli wan u bck...i feel d same way as u.... i was jz tensed cuz of my results....i didnt mean to throw tat anger at u....am sorry

i miss u baby

well...sch was ok today...exams were quiet easy...lalala...well nw mz prepare for pertengahan tahun.....haiz....well i hugged my baby for the second time today....loving her sooooooooooooooo muchy....

missing her lotz....lala.... missing my bf too....i mean my ex....he is stll mine ok....well... nth much i cn say.....till nx i blog...ciao..

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life sucks

welll here i am blogging afta i duno how long....welll my life reli sucks nwdays....well basicali cuz i miss sum1 sooooooooooooooo badly...haiz......i jz duno la i jz feel sooooo stucked up....

well my b'day on the other hand was ok...i was quiet shocked wen sonia wished me....basicali is shanae told sonia... well during meeting today she ask the whole prefect board to sing b'day song 4 da April babies....

haiz haiz haiz....i miss spending time with ma baby gaL...cnt wait afta pmr to spend time with her....haiz haiz.....missing u baby....always am acc...

and yar i oso wen for counceling abt sum stuff.....haiz nx week got date with pn.sonthary ...

till nx time i blog...ciao...

boring

sooooo boring...prjeks cuming in lyk mad....hate it

why does every1 push me to study for a stupid blady music exam??????????

why is every1 sooooo stupid....itz jz a fuckin music exam la for god sake...stupid ppl.... feel lyk flunging the paper on monday...god.......i jz dun no wat to do with ma life...it sucks lyk shit....piece of shit......

about ma life

you took my heart away Mp3 Codes

sleepless night...

i jz cnt sleep nw...i duno why but i j cnt sleep...1st is cuz of ma hand n secondly is cuz i miss him sooooooo much...hw i wish i could still stay in his house...he waz soooooo sweet to me n did everythn 4 me cuz of ma hand pain....i am sooooooo thankfull to hav him....god i miss him now....

i duno wat i'll do it i loose him.... tatz all i guess 4 tonight..

i love u soooooooooooo much.....

he is jz soooooooooooooooooo cute......loving u more n more each day bro.....

26 feb 2009...the most stupid day of ma life....

sry 4 not updating ma blog 4 agest.....veri lazy to update ppl...anyways...i got injected today...n nw it hurts badly tat i cnt sleep...dam it laa...... haiz haiz....sucks la...den got kawat sum more....haiz haiz....life life....jz duno wat to do with life....lalalalalalalalalalalalalala...nth else to write la..... bye bye....